Hahhaha. Funny how they reply the exact same thing :D
Friday, October 28, 2011
Monday, October 24, 2011
Thank you!!
English is over! Finally!! Woohoo! :)
Hahha, soo break down of how my paper went!
For paper 1, I wrote my compo about freedom.
Yes.. I went with my Brother's plan.. Write cliche.. And make sure your grammar is fine.
But like while I was writing.. I froze... I lost my train of thoughts for like 10 mins? Yeah, I was sweating all over.. Super duper worried. And i was like telling myself; "oh noo, Zenas, you're gonna fail this paper.. Look at the clock?! * And you're stuck!! * You're never gonna complete this in time! "
So I spent like that ten minutes praying to God, trying to flush out my human directed thoughts.
And with the Holy spirit giving me strength, i was able to complete my paper smoothly. The feeling of relyin on God was unimaginably amazing. More so in the form of assurance.. He reminded me that if I do screw up my paper, it would not really matter looking from an eternal perspective.
And yes, nothing falls out of God will.
The most amazing thing is that when Joel called me to ask me how my paper went.. He said that he faced 'somewhat' the exact same thing. :)
God is good :) too good already!
And yes, prayer does work. A God given benefit. :>
Hahha, soo break down of how my paper went!
For paper 1, I wrote my compo about freedom.
Yes.. I went with my Brother's plan.. Write cliche.. And make sure your grammar is fine.
But like while I was writing.. I froze... I lost my train of thoughts for like 10 mins? Yeah, I was sweating all over.. Super duper worried. And i was like telling myself; "oh noo, Zenas, you're gonna fail this paper.. Look at the clock?! * And you're stuck!! * You're never gonna complete this in time! "
So I spent like that ten minutes praying to God, trying to flush out my human directed thoughts.
And with the Holy spirit giving me strength, i was able to complete my paper smoothly. The feeling of relyin on God was unimaginably amazing. More so in the form of assurance.. He reminded me that if I do screw up my paper, it would not really matter looking from an eternal perspective.
And yes, nothing falls out of God will.
The most amazing thing is that when Joel called me to ask me how my paper went.. He said that he faced 'somewhat' the exact same thing. :)
God is good :) too good already!
And yes, prayer does work. A God given benefit. :>
Monday, October 10, 2011
When God works, He works.
Should we feel discouraged when God and biblical truth mean nothing to some?
Today, I talked about God with my classmates around my desk... Yeah, the teacher recently changed our sitting positions again.
I shared the gospel with them, and although it seemed like they were interested in the truth that rested in the bible.. It was as though any attempt I tried to share with them more after that subject period, was shunned away by one of them. I wondered to myself.. How could something so interestingly and intriguingly expressed mean nothing to some?
Sometimes, when we try to package God's word so nicely like EE or apologetics, we end up creating this somewhat fixed formula to interest people. We start working, and forget that the work is carried out by God, not us.
Salvation ultimately and absolutely comes from God Himself. He chooses His people by His sovereign will and only by that.
Sometimes, it's not so much of trying, it's more about dependence and prayer.
What can men do to save others? Nothing, but share.
Why do some 'accept' and some reject?
If we go down to the roots of our own salvation..
What was it that made us more inclined to accept the Gospel.
Was it circumstances?
Was it pressure from a Christian family?
Was it because we grew up in a church?
Or was it God?
If it were to truly be God, then trying to find the reason of our inclination to accept such a gospel becomes much harder. ( because if it were to be of external reasons, the reason would be a lot more straight forward)
Why do some believe, and some do not?
It's so hard to give an answer to this because the only reason and answer to such a question is the fact that our salvation solely depends on God's choice and God's work in us even when we were still sinners.
We did nothing.
Nothing to deserve what we find eternal hope in right now.
Today, I talked about God with my classmates around my desk... Yeah, the teacher recently changed our sitting positions again.
I shared the gospel with them, and although it seemed like they were interested in the truth that rested in the bible.. It was as though any attempt I tried to share with them more after that subject period, was shunned away by one of them. I wondered to myself.. How could something so interestingly and intriguingly expressed mean nothing to some?
Sometimes, when we try to package God's word so nicely like EE or apologetics, we end up creating this somewhat fixed formula to interest people. We start working, and forget that the work is carried out by God, not us.
Salvation ultimately and absolutely comes from God Himself. He chooses His people by His sovereign will and only by that.
Sometimes, it's not so much of trying, it's more about dependence and prayer.
What can men do to save others? Nothing, but share.
Why do some 'accept' and some reject?
If we go down to the roots of our own salvation..
What was it that made us more inclined to accept the Gospel.
Was it circumstances?
Was it pressure from a Christian family?
Was it because we grew up in a church?
Or was it God?
If it were to truly be God, then trying to find the reason of our inclination to accept such a gospel becomes much harder. ( because if it were to be of external reasons, the reason would be a lot more straight forward)
Why do some believe, and some do not?
It's so hard to give an answer to this because the only reason and answer to such a question is the fact that our salvation solely depends on God's choice and God's work in us even when we were still sinners.
We did nothing.
Nothing to deserve what we find eternal hope in right now.
Sunday, October 9, 2011
Friday, October 7, 2011
Thursday, October 6, 2011
Report book :)
I finally received my report book and for once.. I don't ever have to give it back :>
Yayness!
So yes, all school based exams are officially over!
And I only have 7 school days left before I graduate! Then there's o's . :/
Haha, so 7 more days of homework and lessons sounds amazingly exciting for all of it to be over.
Anyway, back to the report book.
Yess, sec 1 me :)
Time passes so fast. My goodness. The scary thing is that I forgot how I actually looked. Trust me.. It's really freaky O.O
(sec 1 nafa test)
Take note of my 2.4 km timing :O
Yeahh, I love looking through the report book. Gives me so many memories!
:D
Yayness!
So yes, all school based exams are officially over!
And I only have 7 school days left before I graduate! Then there's o's . :/
Haha, so 7 more days of homework and lessons sounds amazingly exciting for all of it to be over.
Anyway, back to the report book.
Yess, sec 1 me :)
Time passes so fast. My goodness. The scary thing is that I forgot how I actually looked. Trust me.. It's really freaky O.O
(sec 1 nafa test)
Take note of my 2.4 km timing :O
Yeahh, I love looking through the report book. Gives me so many memories!
:D
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
Sunday, October 2, 2011
So true.
Only God can truly satisfy.
For the pass few days I've been spammed with so much work that I find myself neglect spending time with God.
I didn't really feel any 'guilt' pushing aside my quiet time with God for alittle more time to finish up my homework.. Mostly because I gave myself excuses and reasons for me to feel 'right' with God. But I knew deep down He wasn't pleased, not one bit. It was foolish of me to think that praying regularly was enough.. As though we had some holy quota to meet each day.
But on friday night, I felt this huge displeasure on my heart. I felt empty spiritually and far from God. I remember a few weeks back and the periods where I felt so personal with God, like an indescribable friendship, were the best times I had. I found true enjoyment in God and spending time with Him.
But it hit me on Friday. I was frustrated with all the work I had, annoyed with the little things that wouldn't and shouldn't have bothered me, and I was just plain torn apart. It was just horrible the way I felt. Like I shunned God aside for the sake of doing what I felt could give me security. I didn't feel any accomplishment. No happiness of finishing a paper. None that lasted.
And today was just so divine. Like I could hear God shouting at me through today's sermon. Like a storm of both correction and assurance at the same time.
Only He can bring us true happiness. Only He can give us the ability to enjoy. So true.
I knew this as head knowledge.
But I never really felt that huge emptiness without God. This emptiness wasn't mere guilt. It felt like I wasn't me. As though I had like a huge chunk of what was part of my life and purpose ripped out of me. Like an emptiness of unbearable frustration.
What amazing mercy. He brings us back to Him for us to be filled with His everlasting love. He helps us to realise our wrong doings and moulds us into His image more and more. How amazing is that? He does all these even after He gave up His one and only son for the sake of His love for us. What ultimate mercy and grace could be followed by more mercy and grace?
I'm not sure how I'm gonna cope with another week of crazy amounts of homework and with the stress of o' levels coming, but I'm gonna trust that God is sovereign in everything. I want to glorify Him through my studies. To actually act and not casually say that I am glorifying Him.
I'm guessing it's the prime of most of our exams periods.
Please let us pray for one another as brothers and sisters in Christ. I'm sure all of us go through our different problems, and that's why we should commit each other in prayer. We need God's hand in our lives more than we know it.
For the pass few days I've been spammed with so much work that I find myself neglect spending time with God.
I didn't really feel any 'guilt' pushing aside my quiet time with God for alittle more time to finish up my homework.. Mostly because I gave myself excuses and reasons for me to feel 'right' with God. But I knew deep down He wasn't pleased, not one bit. It was foolish of me to think that praying regularly was enough.. As though we had some holy quota to meet each day.
But on friday night, I felt this huge displeasure on my heart. I felt empty spiritually and far from God. I remember a few weeks back and the periods where I felt so personal with God, like an indescribable friendship, were the best times I had. I found true enjoyment in God and spending time with Him.
But it hit me on Friday. I was frustrated with all the work I had, annoyed with the little things that wouldn't and shouldn't have bothered me, and I was just plain torn apart. It was just horrible the way I felt. Like I shunned God aside for the sake of doing what I felt could give me security. I didn't feel any accomplishment. No happiness of finishing a paper. None that lasted.
And today was just so divine. Like I could hear God shouting at me through today's sermon. Like a storm of both correction and assurance at the same time.
Only He can bring us true happiness. Only He can give us the ability to enjoy. So true.
I knew this as head knowledge.
But I never really felt that huge emptiness without God. This emptiness wasn't mere guilt. It felt like I wasn't me. As though I had like a huge chunk of what was part of my life and purpose ripped out of me. Like an emptiness of unbearable frustration.
What amazing mercy. He brings us back to Him for us to be filled with His everlasting love. He helps us to realise our wrong doings and moulds us into His image more and more. How amazing is that? He does all these even after He gave up His one and only son for the sake of His love for us. What ultimate mercy and grace could be followed by more mercy and grace?
I'm not sure how I'm gonna cope with another week of crazy amounts of homework and with the stress of o' levels coming, but I'm gonna trust that God is sovereign in everything. I want to glorify Him through my studies. To actually act and not casually say that I am glorifying Him.
I'm guessing it's the prime of most of our exams periods.
Please let us pray for one another as brothers and sisters in Christ. I'm sure all of us go through our different problems, and that's why we should commit each other in prayer. We need God's hand in our lives more than we know it.
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