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So, finally, another blog post.

This week has been really good i guess.

Completed my geog paper!! yes.

interestingly, on that day of the exam, i fell super sick. like super super. i vomitted 4 times??

yes zenas, stay strong.

so i seriously felt like God was telling me something. for the past week, i've been like cramming and mugging for my papers that were on thurs, and right on that morning i fell sick.

i guess God was really reminding me on my promise to Him to be more dependent on Him and less on myself. I feel sickened by how much i've cheapened a simple promise i made to Him.

anyway, i had cg yesterday and i felt it was a really good time we had together as a group.

doing the purple book helps me to really reflect on my week and my current spiritual state. it helps me to see where my personal relationship with God really is.

And during cg, i can see the many things that we can thank God for. im so happy to see celes putting in effort and participating in cg more these days (: can tell that God is starting to work in her. will continue to keep her in prayer. (: and also we celebrated like ian, nadia and amanda's birthdays this week. i hope they enjoyed their birthdays, even with all the exam stress that's been going around. also, Germ's is leaving for missions to China! im so proud of her and seriously can't wait for what she'd learn from the trip and how God would guide her. im seriously so thankful for such a righteous and caring leader He has placed in our lives. I hope her trip would be safe too, and i'll miss her like alot..

anyway, i was also glad to see so many people come this sat. and i realised that everytime i go for cg, i feel that God reveals more and more about my friends, and how i should care and pray for them. i really should start putting more effort into praying for my friends as well (: i love them all so much!!

So, today's sun, and me, ian and pat went to study tgt after service. yongling joined us too (: really happy that she joined us! we were somewhat studying i guess, but we talked alot too. haha. had a great time with them!

also, there's been a few things that im pretty unhappy about with myself.. i realised that even up to now, when i say that im gonna stop flirting, liking or crushing on girls, i realised that subconsciously, i still do. the way i think about them, and the way i sometimes talk to them, even though i have no intention of going into a relationship. its really hard not to, and i really need God's help in controlling my thoughts and actions. atleast im glad that God has shown me how ugly i truly am, and through this i can see how much more i need to improve to be more like Him. God is soo awesome.

Germaine was right, journalling is really good. maybe someday, future zenas will look back and learn something from all this. haha.